I am happy to be alive. And it's not all the time that I can say that or anything like that and include the word 'happy' so freely. But I am--there are so many things to be excited about that I can't say the word 'happy' enough... happy happy happy happy happy. Thirty years ago I would be saying 'gay gay gay gay gay gay gay gay' but no oops, that word has other connotations to it now so yeah.
I feel blessed to have a family to stay and live with, a job that provides what I need, people who actively help me out and make me feel like I'm ten times better than I really am (they're just that generous with their encouragement). And God opens more and more doors when I seek him. My relationship with Jesus means so much to me, it's like the most priceless thing I have.
A cool thing happened. A lady emailed me and said she knew my mom, and that my mom would be proud of me if she knew what I was doing. My mom has been with the Lord for over six years now and I've never gotten over that to this day. I am always wishing she were here so that I could really be blessed but God has had other plans (and I'm learning that those are far more beneficial). But something my mom did or said that impacted this lady and she mentioned those things to me and I was filled with a warmth that I can't describe.
I am so excited to go back to college and dive in but what's funny is that I'm already doing that right here and I didn't even know it'd be possible. In January I thought that from here on out through August would be a drag like no other but NO and NO AGAIN! it's been fantastic! I feel like I'm living a dream and I can't get enough of it. (And it's only been a couple months). I wonder what it'd be like to feel this way for a whole lifetime. To constantly be challenged and given new blessings and constant renewal of the mind and spirit--why haven't I lived this way before. "I'm keeping my eyes on the prize for which Christ has called me heavenward" And right now that prize is building enough income to pay off debts, meet goals, and get to college. but there has just been so much amazing side stuff God's doing besides just the meat and potatos right there. Never underestimate God! You just can't. He's always got something more than we're expecting up his sleeve and we just don't expect enough...so, I think we should start living the dream and prepare for craziness.....
Makes me want to make this noise: "Gehiheihsihihihiehiheiheihee!"
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